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Thursday, April 29, 2010

I thought life would be more superior without any problems. Oh guh-reat, problem just came. Never underestimate to the power of arguements. I wasn't really satisfied, things haven't settled yet how can she go and blew it off just like that. It will feel so awkward sitting next to her, feeling all rage up and sitting right next to her. Can't avoid from meeting each other. It's too, unbareable. I couldn't manage all my oversensitive feelings, its just too hard to control the ultimate resistance. Firstly, anything have its own limit, such as my temper. It owns a limit, so when you cross the line, don't dare to step onto it, because you know worst things might happen if you do and in the end, you were just holding onto the rope while you are hanging at the sky trying to find way to save yourself, and its all depending on me. Because I'm your hero, once I lose my trust on you, there's no longer a hero for you. You couldn't change the past, everything might turn up the other way around than what you expected it to be. So, stop doing that thing you do, blaming things to me while you got your own issues too. Before you blamed me for something i'd never do, look in the mirror and ask yourself, are you right or just simply wrong?

Cheers♥


Friday, April 23, 2010

Audi, we've been a family for 4 years. You're the longest that stays in my family. There's no other type like you. You make my life worth a thousand words of description. People just know me because of you, Audi. You never fail to entertained me without noticing your speed limits. Oh my gosh, I can't believe I felt like I'm gonna cry over a car. Well, Audi is just not any other car. Audi is like a sister or a brother to me, always carried me to everywhere I wanted to be. I'm gonna miss you Audi. I love you~

You know what I've heard? There's a traitor on who I'm friend with. I can't name them. But my mom knows there is, I was so extremely stuttered to listen on what she says. She told me to be careful. People would have used me, because my family owns a massive amount of money. So, all I know is if I found out whoever you are. Don't even bother to say sorry, once I saw you, I spit on you. You are nothing but a whore. You deserves that title, so EFF OFF bitch.

Cheers♥


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

You know what? Today is amusing yet tiring. Okay let me tell you from the start. Woke up at 6.30, rushed to school got duty for SeafieldFM on 7.10 but ended up arriving there 5 minutes late, so the song is already started without me. Then, met up with teacher incharge. Later, bump into counselling teacher, asked me to meet her. Talk about my life with her, from 7.55 up to 9.15 skips two or three period, couldn't remember. Got back in class and do my Kerja Kayu, ended up that thing broke, so had to do it all over again. Went to recess, back from recess being annoyed by Nageswari, it's an everyday routine. Then, went for Agama class, watching Munawar playing my Kendama and laughing at Syed Hariz's joke. Yet, didn't concentrate in class much. Transferred my pictures in Editorial Board. Back to class and got BM homework. Gone to called Shafiqah's mother if she can stayback, while on our queue for phone, saw Jonathan Stanley's friend caught up with a Gay dude, which is Puan Lim's son, he held his friend's arm so tightly and asked about his age and stuff. Jonathan ran away because afraid of being the next victim. Shafiqah told me all about that Gay ass, the way he abused Shafiqah's brother and Hakim. OMG, pity them. Okay back to the point. I couldn't stop laughing until I reached my class. Reached there and play with Kendama with all of my classmates. Haha, what a day. Moving on...

Then went back at my crib with Shafiqah, at 1.35, ate lunch at school's canteen. Called Adam, he told me won't be coming. Then, went to DIY for a little shopping for our Kerja Kayu. Done it in black and white. Then chatted on Shafiqah's facebook status about the Gay and stuff. Revealing her love towards Hakim. Then, went to guitar class at 5.20. Finished it on 6, bought siew pao and tuna puff. Ate it for dinner, continueing the Kerja Kayu, till now.

Cheers♥


Monday, April 19, 2010

It's gonna be a second post for today.

Guess what?

What?

My ex called me last night but I didn't pick it up. How cool is that?

Fucking awesome!

Well yeah, my ex called me yesterday, last night and yesterday's evening. Firstly I answer the call, here the conversation goes:

Him: Hello. You katne?
Norule: Asal tanye?
Him: Saje, takleh ke?
Norule: Takdela, apa motif kalau saja?
Him: Takde papela
Norule: So, asal tanya I katne? Buatpe nak tahu?
Him: Takde pape, takde pape
Norule: *Hung up*

Then, last night he online on his MSN, so I go and asked him what's with the calling me and stuff.
Again, here's how the conversation goes.

Norule: Yo, asal call tadi?
Him: Oh takde papela
Norule: Asal?
Him: Saje je call you, takleh ke?
Norule: Takleh
Him: Oh sorry
Norule: So, why call?
Him: Takde papelaaa. Ok i gtg, bye
30 minutes later(he still onlines)~
Norule: Ok, kalau tak cukup perempuan, cakap jela :)

Then an hour later, he'd called me, maybe to raise his voice towards me, but I didn't even pick it up, because I'm too tired of listening to his fucking issues. And I'm bored with him.

And the conclusion is, I won't pick up any unreasonable calls. People who would call me must have certain reasons. If the word "Saje" came out or anything that had to do with it. All I know is, I hung up the phone or else just mock them till they were so pissed. So yeah, before you wasting my time calling me without any reasons, try to think twice, because I'll make your life harder after this.

Cheers♥



I've been practicing my Kendama for the past four days, I guess? It's time to give it a break from my obsessive disorder. I've bought it last Friday, couldn't stop using it. For those whom are not known to such things called Kendama. Browse to this link www.kendama.de or check on youtube on how awesome do they play it. If you are eager enough, you can search the Kendama at Wheel Love Skateshop, located in SS15. Trust me, looking at it was a remarkable view, thus while you playing it, you won't give up on practicing how well you can play it but when you're already good at it, you want to do it again and again until you've become pros. So, you won't let go of this thing. Like me, I bring it everywhere, like I'm bringing my phone to everywhere. I'm so obsessed with this thing. Don't be such a shallow minded people, this awesome toy gives me the ability to learn on how to balance and stabilized my positions. Which gave me a moral value that everything needs to be balance :)

Oh and another thing, i've been reminiscence the past, throughout the days when my life seems pretty begun to grow more self esteem inside of me. I've remembered during my childhood days, when life was everything you could imagine of. At a certain point, I've realized, because of Kendama, I felt nevertheless a younger person. A person who I'd used to be. The little Norule who everybody being entertained of. I have a lot of obsessions. I remembered that, when I was a kid, I love eating choki choki, and bought a box of chocolate with free toys included. I couldn't remember what was the name of that box of chocolate. I remember that I used to love bubblegums but until now never blow one before. Oh, my favourite movie is Tom and Jerry whereas my favourite band is Nickelback and Evanescence, that explains how tomboy-ish I acted till now. My favourite childhood colour is Pink. I remembered that my bestest best friend whom I knew for years and years is my own neighbour. She is a lot younger than me, I think she is now in Standard Six if i'm not mistaken. We had arguements and fight almost everyday. Example, today we're okay and the next day we're fight and the other day we're back to our normal lifes. I know the way we contacted each other is humorous. You know that neighbours had one thing that separates the house, which is gates, gates that are a twine of metals. We took a chair and sat down and chat all day long without noticing times passes by and even the weather is getting hotter. I don't know why don't we just talk with each other by going to each other houses-___-. When my cat went to her house, I have the most envious feeling that I hate when my cat loves to go there. Oh! How the most littlest things in life we used to spent is the most memorable and precious times on our lifes.

Cheers♥


Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Things were an absolute frustrating. Me with my Geography and Sivik project undone, must pass up tomorrow. Nevermind, I'm trying to do it as fast as I could. Well life is going on great, I have nothing to be distracted of, such as friendship and stuff. I'm starting to moving on with my life pretty well. I have nothing to worry about. But people do worry about me, they misses me. Well KOPERASI wasn't as pretty loud as it used to, I've changed y'knw. I won't be the person who kept on crying over some shit when things go bad. Nawh, I don't. But now I know, things were solved so I have nothing to worry about, it's all up to the person incharge to forgive and forget the past or not. But I did. Amir, it's all up to them if they wanna let the past go or not, I'm too fucked up at the moment, I let things off already. The only thing is, I'm not gonna solve things anymore, I'm too tired, I'm not a superhuman or wonderwoman. They are the ones who had to choose to continue with our friendship or not. I have nothing to lose, the most valuable ones are already stick with me through thick and thin. Through days that fly by, through everything. So yeah...

Cheers♥


Sunday, April 11, 2010

Hey, its been a while since my last post. I like this particular guy, he is adorable but yet I don't know the personality of him. Well, i'm trying to change myself. Maybe into somebody new yet a different person but still the same old me. I'm trying to be more mature and act more feminine. I am too rockstar, I'm loud and didn't care what the world says to me as long as I live without any regrets. But this guy, maybe he would make me into another person. I won't be that quiet only somehow in a feminine way. Maybe, I dress up in a hotstuff way or something. If only money is never a problem. But hey, someday, things will happen the way I want it to be. So yeah, I've got a question, you should reply on tagboard. What if the loud, sensitive and more rockstar way Norule is already gone just for a guy?

Cheers♥


Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Dude, I wasn't even viewing your profile so stop bragging. And another thing, it's up to me whether I wanna put a "like" on your lover of the day or not. I'm just viewing it through news feed, you're such a joke, a plain joke. Why'd you even care if I put "like"? You're just jealous because I've ditched you when I'm not. You're too overreacted that I'm gonna be your BEST FRIEND. Oh bitch, get a life, I don't care of listening to your problems, you're just a big joke, that makes me wanna puke. Stop talking with me by any shits, man. I just don't care. You even crazy about girls boobs, even ASHA's and more. Now I'm gonna make your name stink. If Asha is reading this, it's just your luck if she didn't care. But seriously, don't mess with me, I don't fucking care if you can beat the hell out of me, I can claim rewards from you, motherfucking son of a bitch.

Cheers♥


Monday, April 5, 2010

I've practiced my life every single day, trying to say the right words or steps onto the right floor.
Doing no foul play, nor living the lies in between the rhythmic false.
Ok, here's the thing, I'll tell you the true story of this girl. This very girl..

It was a plain luck, being greeted by the future, being warned by the time. Every seconds, every minutes, there always be something that goes wrong. Before that very day comes inviting her to hell's door, she was soon enough to aware such things happened. Like friends pulling her off, family turning on the volume as loud as they can and moreover, her life is falling apart. One day, dad was assuming to get her to place where she needs to belong, that is, HARVARD. HARVARD isn't easy to obtain, so she had to work hard and erase her pessimistic attitude. JUST FOR HER DAD. After her dad went home from China, she finally told whats the best thing for her, which is being a photographer, to capture the beauty of the world. But until now, her dad kept in silence, and not a word was found. No comments about what she was aiming for. Maybe just maybe, it disappoints her dad, because all he wants to have is a doctor runs in the family. And..

SHE IS ME.

I, nevertheless was finally blank on how to appoint myself to a great future and also my own way to achieve it. Maybe, I had to throw all my dreams away and had to follow on what should I suppose to do.

Cheers♥



Aiman Ashrul is a fucking bullshit, and by the way Aiman, if you reading this, if you tryna reply back, read this "get your fucking ass punch a hole through your balls, because you've just lost your man card, bloody fool".

Oh by the way, hey readers, check my blogshop out yaw checkerandstuds.blogspot.com.

Cheers♥


Sunday, April 4, 2010

For no fucking reasons, acting like nothing happened, for another no fucking reasons, calling me stupid and bitch like she isn't. Hey, i know i'm quite damn well better than you, moron. You don't have any guts to let out stuff that you dislikes about us. You only know how to laugh at us people, while you're the one who is a big, big skank joker.

I remembered, weeks ago, I was the naughtiest bitch(didn't meant anything dirty). I don't do homeworks, skip classes too often, fooling around like this year has nothing much. Well, i was quite concerned about my results, it's getting worst, and somehow, I wasn't fooling around anymore because friends are no longer there for me. I'm acting all solo eventhough there's Shafiqah and Surya always stuck with me. I am now awake, and Pee Am Are is calling my name and yell at me "WAKE UP BITCH, PMR IS HERE". Damn, I was like "why so soon? I was about to have my dream about fantasy land".

I was colaborate with other's who managed to knocked me down. But it's a tough mission. It's like going on world war fuckingIII. I wasn't that strong, like a pillar, nor a wall. I'm just a plain joke, used to be great in making friends cheerful, but now I'm sorta living my life as hell as it is. I wasn't acting all emo shits. I was just telling you that my life is quite boring, I'm not as loud as i could be, I kept quiet eventhough people were trying to give me some bullshits about this and that. I've just kept quiet. I've lost somebody who I'd care much. Friends who are being adored and give me hopes to encounter problems. They are no longer there for me.

Would have tell you a secret, sometimes the way I survive in this jungle full of problems, is in a bad way. I would say "losing a friend is way more better than losing a life", or "losing a friend is nothing but gain 10 more friends are something". For me, eventhough it helps me well, but I think it's kinda hurtful. It's seems like i don't care about what happened or even tried to win back my friendship with them. But all I have to know, I had to live my life as how it goes no matter how many shit happens. Life is poor pathetic and unpredictable, gotta run it like a clock somehow.

Cheers♥


Saturday, April 3, 2010

An actual thought, it's third day of April, and suppose to be 9 months of... er wouldn't mention it, suppose to be forgetting it. Life is getting better, i started smile again, and laugh at my own jokes. Being sarcastic and all, acting like shits never had been happened. I'm back to the old me, oh good month. April is quite a busy month. I'm already getting busy, with projects that need to be pass up at the end of April, i would never change as a better person, always burn the midnight oil. Not to mention, sports day are coming, need to cover for saringan and etc etc. Oh and yeah, IU NIGHT, godddd, couldn't resist the temptation of the dancefloor, would have count the days if I'm not too lazy :p Aprilfools day weren't so happening after all, I didn't fool anyone at all, I'm just stuck inside the box of emo shit. Idk, how to handle this sensitive attitude anymore, but I'm trying my best, I deserve nothing but a good life, a good year and good endings. Please people, stop fooling with me anymore, I'm a human, i don't deserve any shits eventhough you say it's a gift, what a bozos.

Cheers♥


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Hey, I'm Norule, already 15. And my personal assistant for this blog is Shafiqah. If she feels that she wants to blog, she will blog. She always quotes so that's how you can tear apart the differences. Oh yeah, the person who wore the yellow shirt is Shafiqah. That's all, bye



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